So this definitely started out as a blog on leadership. I don’t know what happened there…lol.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about God’s will, or rather his timing. Maybe I’m a weird control freak, in fact I probably am, but I just wish God would run his timeline for my life by me so I know exactly what is going on and when it is going to happen. Because really, how do we figure that out?
Before in my life, it has always just been the question of what God’s will is. For example, I didn’t know where I needed to go to college, obviously, the timing for that was already set, I just had to figure out the details. Since we are talking about that, we will just take a little side journey and talk about how I decided on ASU :-] Honestly, I didn’t want to go to ASU at all. In fact, the only reason I even visited ASU was because my parents made me. I was UCA all the way. UCA had been my plan since 8th grade. It was only an hour and a half away from home, it was my ideal situation. However, the moment I stepped foot on UCA campus for the first time, I knew it wasn’t right. I can’t explain how really, but I just felt it. However, being the stubborn person I am I was convinced I was just being silly, over exaggerating; it had just been a crazy tour day, that’s all. Then my parents and I made the 3 hour trek to Jonesboro. Again, being the stubborn person I am, I complained about how long and boring the drive was (and actually still do occasionally lol) but the moment I stepped foot on ASU campus, I just had peace. I knew that was where I was supposed to go. Of course, I still wasn’t happy about it. So then, again, being the stubborn person that I am, I told God, “Fine, you want me at ASU, whatever, but you better believe I’m not going three hours away without someone I already know to room with.” I knew that no one I knew (or so I thought) was going to ASU, they all had other arrangements. I’m not even gonna lie, I felt a little victorious. That was dumb. I mean really, do we ever beat God? Um no. A few weeks later, my parents ran into the Rountree’s at a basketball tournament. I had played softball with their daughter Elizabeth for a few years when I was little and we had been really good friends. We had simply lost touch over the years. They naturally started talking about what our college plans were. Long story short, Elizabeth was coming to ASU and also needed a roommate. Now, I hadn’t talked to her in years, but she was someone I knew. So it was settled, I came to ASU. And now, I am soooooo thankful I did!!! I have made some of the greatest friends here and grown so much closer to God. I realize now that I needed to get farther away from home to discover who I was alone in Christ, and it has been an amazing journey so far! :-]
So yeah, back to the actually topic of this blog, God’s timing. The “where am I going to college” issue was hard enough and I didn’t even have to worry about timing. How do we know when. I mean, we have all heard that saying, “The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing.” God obviously has a different timeline than us. I’m sure Sarah and Abraham would have liked to had a kid much sooner. In fact, they tried to make it happen, and because they didn’t follow God’s timeline, the whole Ishmael thing happened (and we all know the problems that has caused and is still causing.) Mary probably would have rather gotten pregnant after she was married, ya know, since she could have been stoned even though she had done nothing wrong. Like I said, obviously God’s timeline is not our own. Sometimes His timeline brings changes and big decisions in our lives quicker than we would like. Sometimes slower. The question is, how do you know?
To be completely honest with you, I have no clue what the answer is. That’s why I have been thinking about this for days now, lol. But I have come to somewhat of a conclusion. If we are honestly seeking after God’s will in our lives and we have an issue come up that we don’t know what to do or whether or not it is God’s timing, and we pray earnestly for God to reveal what we are supposed to do and have faith that He will do so, He will. I don’t know how exactly. Maybe it will just be a feeling of peace or uneasiness. Maybe it will be through a friend or relative or mentor (although when coming from people involved you have to often consider whether or not their opinion is biased.) Maybe it will be through a passage of scripture, or a podcast, or a blog, or a song you hear on the radio. Or maybe it will be through some other crazy way like a dream (yes I honestly believe God can and does still speak to people in dreams. But if we are honestly and earnestly seeking him, he isn’t going to leave us to figure it out for ourselves. And sometimes, I think that God lets us decide for ourselves and works it out to his good. But either way, if you are seeking God’s will and trying to please him, he is going to bless your actions.
I hope that made sense. If you have read my blog, you know that sometimes it doesn’t lol… It is just the craziness in my head that I decide to share with the world :-] Feel free to comment if you have any other views, because I for sure don’t know it all and have probably gotten some of this wrong. Love you guys :-]
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